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Father Of Mine

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  Dear father of mine we’ve grown so far apart
We never really did get each other,
Why did you break me and mommy’s heart?

  Remember when you went to rehab?
Remember when you came back drunk?
Remember when you beat poor mom,
and how she begged for you to stop?

  Remember when you cried that night,
And promised you would change?
I remember when I realized,
That you would always be the same…

  With a beer in your hand
A glazed look in your eyes,
Sometimes I would just ask god,
-Please make daddy die…-

  I remember when mommy sat me down,
She couldn’t breathe from all the crying
-Papi has cancer Daniel, your fathers dying-
I jumped up from the sofa and screamed “You know he’s lying!”

  But…for once you told the truth.
The doctor’s showed me all the proof.
Why was I so damn cold, why was it so hard for me to get??
I was losing you my one and only dad, with every painful breath…

  I wouldn’t answer any calls; I didn’t have the strength to see you.
I was a coward through and through
Let this stupid poem be the words I never gave you,

  I forgive you for all the pain, the booze made you ill
I forgive you for hurting mommy; you know she loves you still…
I miss you Dad, I love you Dad…
And I promise I’ll be the man, I’ll be a dad, and I’ll show you what I can do…


Leinad Zanaris
I cried when I wrote this. I dedicate this to my father Joesph Albert Colon and to everyone who has lost a loved one and was never able to tell them how much they cared. Live life everyday like if it were your last and always remind those who you love just how much you love them. Don't let anger fog your judgement. God Bless. Learn from my mistakes and become better. Love with everything you got.

L.Z
© 2008 - 2024 Zanaris
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sunsteps's avatar
your words are very inspiring.. but i cannot feel the same for the second half of the poem. i still wish mine was dead. your words do make me stop and think for a moment, but ive had much time to stop and think. i think i'll either always be in the first half of the poem, or i may change one day and be able to totally relate to this. either way, great writing, and i hope people do go out and change <3