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Dear father of mine we’ve grown so far apart
We never really did get each other,
Why did you break me and mommy’s heart?
Remember when you went to rehab?
Remember when you came back drunk?
Remember when you beat poor mom,
and how she begged for you to stop?
Remember when you cried that night,
And promised you would change?
I remember when I realized,
That you would always be the same…
With a beer in your hand
A glazed look in your eyes,
Sometimes I would just ask god,
-Please make daddy die…-
I remember when mommy sat me down,
She couldn’t breathe from all the crying
-Papi has cancer Daniel, your fathers dying-
I jumped up from the sofa and screamed “You know he’s lying!”
But…for once you told the truth.
The doctor’s showed me all the proof.
Why was I so damn cold, why was it so hard for me to get??
I was losing you my one and only dad, with every painful breath…
I wouldn’t answer any calls; I didn’t have the strength to see you.
I was a coward through and through
Let this stupid poem be the words I never gave you,
I forgive you for all the pain, the booze made you ill
I forgive you for hurting mommy; you know she loves you still…
I miss you Dad, I love you Dad…
And I promise I’ll be the man, I’ll be a dad, and I’ll show you what I can do…
Leinad Zanaris
We never really did get each other,
Why did you break me and mommy’s heart?
Remember when you went to rehab?
Remember when you came back drunk?
Remember when you beat poor mom,
and how she begged for you to stop?
Remember when you cried that night,
And promised you would change?
I remember when I realized,
That you would always be the same…
With a beer in your hand
A glazed look in your eyes,
Sometimes I would just ask god,
-Please make daddy die…-
I remember when mommy sat me down,
She couldn’t breathe from all the crying
-Papi has cancer Daniel, your fathers dying-
I jumped up from the sofa and screamed “You know he’s lying!”
But…for once you told the truth.
The doctor’s showed me all the proof.
Why was I so damn cold, why was it so hard for me to get??
I was losing you my one and only dad, with every painful breath…
I wouldn’t answer any calls; I didn’t have the strength to see you.
I was a coward through and through
Let this stupid poem be the words I never gave you,
I forgive you for all the pain, the booze made you ill
I forgive you for hurting mommy; you know she loves you still…
I miss you Dad, I love you Dad…
And I promise I’ll be the man, I’ll be a dad, and I’ll show you what I can do…
Leinad Zanaris
Literature
Father of Mine
You left me behind without a thought,
Gone long before I knew you.
You were the first to hurt me,
And far from the last.
I have no memories of you,
And only thoughts of hate.
I have no name to call you,
For your only ties to me are of blood,
No love,
No help,
Nothing from you,
The man who is supposedly to be my father.
Near 20 years of ignorance,
Yet I gave up on you after five.
You ignored my youth
And my existence.
Shall I ever even see you,
In a passing glance, perchance?
I used to think and wish.
Friends talk not of their fathers,
For fear of hurting me.
But I don't begrudge them their feelings,
No, for I only should
Literature
I Want to Be a Father
to talk to you
is to bring pain and longing
because when I talk to you
I want to be a father
have wanted children since I can remember
promised mother a son by next December
there's just the problem of my member
so many options available to me
in this gilded age of technology
but they all lack involvement
to talk to you
is to bring pain and longing
because when I talk to you
I want to be a father
an artificial pregnancy
the only way for me to have progeny
but that would mean nothing
but I'd never sleep with a woman
even drunk I'd be stumbling
but I need to be a father
adoption always an option
I never plan to marry though
Literature
Heartbreak...
HEARTBREAK TASTES JUST LIKE STEEL
How do you feel? I designed myself to love you more, I scratch your skin, I'm waiting outside to tell you you're lovely.
I crawl to your house and I nail myself to your door with my arms outspread, so you can see that I love you more.
I slit my wrists with porcelain and I tear my throat to shreds so you would notice me, finally, finally.
I swallow my promise to never taste this again, I'm laughing as I bleed to death, as I bleed to death, as I bleed to death
Hold out. It's such a waste to say that you need me more, when you really don't at all.
It's the iron taste of blood in my mouth from biting my ton
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I cried when I wrote this. I dedicate this to my father Joesph Albert Colon and to everyone who has lost a loved one and was never able to tell them how much they cared. Live life everyday like if it were your last and always remind those who you love just how much you love them. Don't let anger fog your judgement. God Bless. Learn from my mistakes and become better. Love with everything you got.
L.Z
L.Z
© 2008 - 2024 Zanaris
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your words are very inspiring.. but i cannot feel the same for the second half of the poem. i still wish mine was dead. your words do make me stop and think for a moment, but ive had much time to stop and think. i think i'll either always be in the first half of the poem, or i may change one day and be able to totally relate to this. either way, great writing, and i hope people do go out and change <3