Dear father of mine weve grown so far apart
We never really did get each other,
Why did you break me and mommys heart?
Remember when you went to rehab?
Remember when you came back drunk?
Remember when you beat poor mom,
and how she begged for you to stop?
Remember when you cried that night,
And promised you would change?
I remember when I realized,
That you would always be the same
With a beer in your hand
A glazed look in your eyes,
Sometimes I would just ask god,
-Please make daddy die
I remember when mommy sat me down,
She couldnt breathe from all the crying
-Papi has cancer Daniel, your fathers dying-
I jumped up from the sofa and screamed You know hes lying!
for once you told the truth.
The doctors showed me all the proof.
Why was I so damn cold, why was it so hard for me to get??
I was losing you my one and only dad, with every painful breath
I wouldnt answer any calls; I didnt have the strength to see you.
I was a coward through and through
Let this stupid poem be the words I never gave you,
I forgive you for all the pain, the booze made you ill
I forgive you for hurting mommy; you know she loves you still
I miss you Dad, I love you Dad
And I promise Ill be the man, Ill be a dad, and Ill show you what I can do