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  Dear father of mine we’ve grown so far apart
We never really did get each other,
Why did you break me and mommy’s heart?

  Remember when you went to rehab?
Remember when you came back drunk?
Remember when you beat poor mom,
and how she begged for you to stop?

  Remember when you cried that night,
And promised you would change?
I remember when I realized,
That you would always be the same…

  With a beer in your hand
A glazed look in your eyes,
Sometimes I would just ask god,
-Please make daddy die…-

  I remember when mommy sat me down,
She couldn’t breathe from all the crying
-Papi has cancer Daniel, your fathers dying-
I jumped up from the sofa and screamed “You know he’s lying!”

  But…for once you told the truth.
The doctor’s showed me all the proof.
Why was I so damn cold, why was it so hard for me to get??
I was losing you my one and only dad, with every painful breath…

  I wouldn’t answer any calls; I didn’t have the strength to see you.
I was a coward through and through
Let this stupid poem be the words I never gave you,

  I forgive you for all the pain, the booze made you ill
I forgive you for hurting mommy; you know she loves you still…
I miss you Dad, I love you Dad…
And I promise I’ll be the man, I’ll be a dad, and I’ll show you what I can do…


Leinad Zanaris
I cried when I wrote this. I dedicate this to my father Joesph Albert Colon and to everyone who has lost a loved one and was never able to tell them how much they cared. Live life everyday like if it were your last and always remind those who you love just how much you love them. Don't let anger fog your judgement. God Bless. Learn from my mistakes and become better. Love with everything you got.

L.Z
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sunsteps Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013  Student General Artist
your words are very inspiring.. but i cannot feel the same for the second half of the poem. i still wish mine was dead. your words do make me stop and think for a moment, but ive had much time to stop and think. i think i'll either always be in the first half of the poem, or i may change one day and be able to totally relate to this. either way, great writing, and i hope people do go out and change <3
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2013
Thanks so much for the comment. I sincerely hope that you can work on that 2nd part of of your feelings. It takes time. A lot of time. But, things can change.
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hottyout1010 Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2011  Student
after i read this i cried and cried and iwent to talk to my father and i told him i forgave him for hurting me and that i still lved him because an amazing poet reminded me to always love with all i got!!
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2011
I cannot even tell you how amazing your comment made me feel. I am so so glad you were able to talk to him. That really left me with my mouth open.
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hottyout1010 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2011  Student
and i never would have done it without you so thank you
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PREPPYEMOGIRLXP Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2010
now you make me cry...wow your a relly sentimental guy. :)
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2010
lol really. Most girls would disagree with you.
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PREPPYEMOGIRLXP Featured By Owner May 2, 2010
Y thats relly good? and all your outher stufe is good 2...
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Zanaris Featured By Owner May 3, 2010
Thank you very much. Your flattering me now lol
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PREPPYEMOGIRLXP Featured By Owner May 5, 2010
:D you know you like it lol ;) lol (jk jk)
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Zanaris Featured By Owner May 8, 2010
You know I do lol
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PREPPYEMOGIRLXP Featured By Owner May 10, 2010
hahaha so hows life???
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Zanaris Featured By Owner May 11, 2010
Good finishing up school. You?
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PenJunkie Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2009
...damn. Wow. I would've cried if I wrote this too. Kinda hits home for me and...well good job. This piece could gain an emotional response from any reader.
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2009
Thank you very much. I never really knew how to explain these things to my father, sadly this came to me after he passed on. I'm glad you enjoyed it.
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PenJunkie Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2009
After the fact, when it's too late...it seems to always go that way, doesn't it?
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2009
Changed my life in a total to be honest with you. Not a day goes by that I don't try to appreciate every little thing that happens to me
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PenJunkie Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2009
That's very good. I strive to live like that, but I can't say I don't slip up on a regular basis.
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2009
We all do, but it can be so much fun lol
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PenJunkie Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2009
To slip up?
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2009
Suffering is what makes us better people. I was told that by a priest a long long time ago and I didn't realize what it meant until I lost my father. It's okay to mess up once in a while and allow yourself to be sad, because once you beat it you become stronger, better.
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KimmikoTakeda Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2008   Writer
Woooooow! I'm crying and thinking about my dad right now. and everyone of my family memebers that I just lost recently, and how much I wish i could said goodbe. Your poem has awaken something inside of me, thank you! You've melted that cold slab of ice that had frozen around my heart. You've broken down the damm that forced my tears within me, letting them out. I owe you so much, i feel, I no longer am shaking from the cold, instead from my renewed emotions!
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2008
I...my god I've never had anyone tell me something so heart felt. I'm so so so so so happy that my work touched you the way it did. You don't owe me a thing. Not a thing. I wrote this for people like us that have lost loved ones. I wish I cold tell you so much more, you've left me without words. I mean like really. Thank you so much for reading my work.
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KimmikoTakeda Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2008   Writer
Your welcome, and thanks for being so kind.
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Aethalia Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2008
Actually, that poem brought tears to my eyes. My dad died because of the booze almost 3 years ago. Heart attack or something. I was in Japan as an exchange student when that happened, and I'll always remember the first thing I thought when my mom called me to tell me he had passed away was "Shit. He and I had fallen out. I'll never be able to tell him that I forgive him, that I still loved him no matter what and stuff..."
So, yeah, believe me, I sure know how that feels. And that's a very powerful poem you wrote here. I agree that people shouldn't let anger fog their judgment. Saying I hate you is so much easier than saying the contrary when It shouldn't be. Much love to you too :)
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2008
I wish I was capable of telling you how glad it makes me to know that I've touched your heart in some way. I'm so sorry to hear about your father. I must admit though you've left me with a smile on my face that will probably last the remainder of the day. So much love to you.
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Aethalia Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2008
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c-h-a-r-l-i-xxxx Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2008  Student Traditional Artist
Owww.. thats soo sad :(. I love your poems.. they really bring out the emotions. Yeh.. good job.. i might just have to get a tissue now..
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2008
Thank you so very much. It was a very sad moment in my life. Sadly it took me too long to realize alot of stuff. I'm so glad you enjoy my work. It amazes me that I can cause your emotions to come out. I think that is so awesome. Much love.
L.Z
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c-h-a-r-l-i-xxxx Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2008  Student Traditional Artist
Yeh.. i hope you can keep churning out work this great.. it just keeps coming :D Yah.. cya..
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2008
God you inspire me. Like no joke. It's so rare that people do that. I'm so lucky to have random muses. Much Love.
L.Z
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c-h-a-r-l-i-xxxx Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2008  Student Traditional Artist
Wow.. kewl :D Im honoured.. yup hehe.. cya with your next piece... :p
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Serenitypeaches Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2008
So here's the final product, eh? I don't know what you did to it, but it's thoroughly beautiful. It's strange how something so bad like your pain and loss can be transformed into something good, and that even those bad feelings can be used for good, to teach and to advise. I respect you for sharing something so personal with us, with the world, because it's thereby that maybe someone else might find healing.
You amaze me more everyday, and the fact that you've continued to live your life and move on from those constricting feelings and make something of yourself is just another instance of that. It's amazing.
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2008
You enjoying my work means...so so much to me. Your right by the way. I want people to learn from the extremly silly mistakes I've made. I'm so glad that you liked it. The fact that I can still amaze you makes my heart sing.
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Serenitypeaches Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2008
Does your heart sing as good as you do? Maybe I should keep complimenting you; then I'd get a real show out of it.
Seriously though, I love the fact that you write, that you don't neglect your vocabulary, that you can express yourself so well, and finally that the things you express are all good, edifying, and basically awesome. Except for the perverted stuff. You dirty, dirty man, you. lol but I don't mind your dirtyness. I cleans yu, don't worry.
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2008
Clean me???!! But why?! Many of my fellow deviants enjoy my perversion. lol. There is some dirt that just don't wash off. lol. I'm so glad that you like my work. And well about the whole getting a show out of me...you don't need to do much my dear. I'm putty in your hands.
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ironmanlivesagain Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2008
I think this is your best one yet (cant think of anything else to say)
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2008
Thank you very very much. That means alot coming from you
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lordpepito Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2008
Its hard for me not to cry as I read this. So much I could say about it but at the moment I find myself speechless. I'm too chocked up in emotions to even think straight. To a certain extent I know what you went through and you reminded me of what I had forgotten and nearly lost. Thank you.
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2008
People like you are the reason why I opened up a DA account. I'm so happy you enjoyed my work. Much love.
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CireLeonhart Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2008
Again, this is pretty deep, Daniel. It must have taken so much to be able to express yourself this much. Kudos.
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2008
Thanks, na I have to admit this is something I should have done years ago when it really counted for something.
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Jennoasis Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2008
Wow there is so much emotion and depth in this.
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2008
Thanks. I think it has to be the most honest thing I've ever written.
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Jennoasis Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2008
I bet. Wow.
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BlackRozePetal Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2008  Professional Interface Designer
Man why do you have to be such a good and sentimental person? Youre even making me cry. I think your father has to be proud to have his son learn from his father's mistakes and to end up being a nice person through it all. I think he's glad that you forgave him and if he were to read this poem I think he'd cry too.
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Zanaris Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2008
Thank you. It just took me too long to realize that I could have forgiven him. This poem isn't just for people to learn from his mistakes but also to learn from mines.
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